So my 'bestest bestie' & I had a heart to heart - sure it was accompanied by some alcohol, but it put absolutely everything into perspective.
When we get together it's like we throw everything that's important in the time we haven't seen eachother into that evening - it was nice, because with her I hide nothing, I have no reason to. I hate hiding.
We talked about why she's pulled away so much from me and ya know what? I understand! It's a tuff luv typa thing, she's tired of hearing me talk about the negatives and sadness in my life and wants me to just do something about it... I understand that. Once I hit the ground running as a single mother, she'll be here in the way she was before but I won't expect 98% of what she gave me last time... I understand that, and I think the over-support was possibly a portion of what made me kinda weak last time to, I need to rough it out to endure it on my own - I just need to know that I have at least one person who's gonna be my Girl-Friday... I want her as my friend and she is... but I need me. I can do this...
Today the preparation starts! More action, less talk.
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