Wednesday, October 27, 2010

How do you remove bricks from a wall that have been cemented in since you were a child?

Answer: I have no freakin idea!

This is a continuation from the first post from today...

He decided to come talk to me about it, to express how upset he was... claimed that i do nothing but brush off his emotions... Wa-BAM! I felt the wall take it's full stance against him, even my body language screamed "get the fuck away from me"... I felt that 'little girl' holding me practiclly by my throat in a way preventing me from conversing as some might have - I was ballsy at some points when I did talk, but otherwise leaned as far away as I could and even after the conversation when things should have been resolved, inside me, they weren't. *scoffs*, they aren't. 

I'm honestly not sure if this marriage is salvageable.  Is my inner child preventing the progress/responsible for the regress?  Do I really not love him, or is this way of protecting myself from a probably disaster? 

I.Don't.Know.

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